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I'm　very　much　obliged　to　you　for　the　remark　you　made　to　Cousin　Ik

on　that　occasion。〃



〃Yes；　I　remember；〃　Van　Berg　groaned。　　〃I　waked　you　up　as　if　I　were

trying　to　put　your　shoulder　out　of　joint。　　Well；　I'm　waking　up

also。〃



〃You　have　no　idea　what　a　perfect　sham　of　a　life　I　led；〃　and　she

told　him　frankly　of　her　wasted　school　days　and　of　her　trip　abroad；

for　which　she　had　no　preparation　of　mind　or　character。　　〃A　butterfly

might　have　flown　over　the　same　ground　and　come　back　just　as　wise；〃

she　said。　　〃But　I　have　suddenly　entered　a　new　world　of　truth

and　duty；　and　I　am　bewildered；　I　am　anxious　to　fit　myself　for　the

society　of　sensible；　cultivated　people；　and　I　am　discouraged　by

the　task　before　me。　　I　went　to　father's　library　yesterday　and　was

perfectly　appalled　by　the　number　of　books　and　subjects　that　I　know

nothing　about。　　The　fact　that　I　stumbled　into　that　encyclopaedia；

which　gave　you　the　laugh　against　me；　shows　how　helpless　I　am。

Indeed；　I'm　like　a　little　child　trying　to　find　its　way　through　a

wilderness　of　knowledge。　　I　blundered　on　as　far　as　Amsterdam；　and

there　I　stopped　in　despair。　　I　didn't　know　what　was　before　me；　and

I　was　getting　everything　I　had　been　over　confused　and　mixed　up　in

my　mind。　　And　now；　Mr。　Van　Berg；　with　your　thorough　education　and

wide　experience　you　can　tell　me　what　to　read　and　how　to　read。〃



Van　Berg's　face　was　fairly　alive　with　interest；　and　he　said　eagerly：

〃The　favor　you　ask　suggests　a　far　greater　one　on　my　part。　　Let　me

go　with　you　through　this　wilderness　of　knowledge。　　We　can　take　up

courses　of　reading　together。〃



At　this　moment　Mr。　Mayhew　entered；　and　the　artist　hesitated　to　go

on　with　his　far…reaching　offers；　and；　indeed；　he　suddenly　began　to

realize；　with　some　embarrassment；　how　much　they　did　　involve。



But　Ida　maintained　her　presence　of　mind；　and　said；　simply：　　〃That

would　be　impossible；　though　no　doubt　exceedingly　helpful　to　me。

Here；　as　in　the　instance　of　the　pictures；　your　good…nature　and

kindness　carry　you　far　beyond　what　I　ever　dreamed　of　asking。　　I

merely　thought　that　in　some　of　your　moments　of　leisure　you　could

jot　down　some　books　and　subjects　that　would　be　the　same　as　if　you

had　pointed　out　smooth　and　shady　paths。　　You　see；　in　my　ignorance；

I've　tried　to　push　my　way　through　the　wilderness　straight　across

everything。　　Last　evening　I　pestered　my　father　with　so　many　questions

about　politics　and　the　topics　of　the　day；　that　he　thought　I　had

lost　my　wits。〃



Mr。　Mayhew　leaned　back　in　his　chair　and　laughed　heartily；　as　he

mentally　ejaculated：　　〃Well　done；　little　girl！〃



〃I　will　brush　up　my　literary　ideas；　and　do　the　best　I　can；　very

gladly；〃　said　Van　Berg。　　〃But　you　greatly　underrate　yourself　and

overrate　my　ability。　　I　am　still　but　on　the　edge　of　this　wilderness

of　knowledge　myself；　and　in　crossing　a　wilderness　one　likes　company。〃



〃Oh；　I　could　never　keep　up　with　your　manly　strides；〃　said　Ida；　with

a　sudden　trill　of　laughter。　　〃Having　secured　my　wish；　I　shall　now

reward　you　with　some　very　poor　music；　which　will　suggest　my　need

of　lessons　in　that　direction　also。〃



Van　Berg　was　not　long　in　discovering　that　she　would　never　become　a

great　musician；　no　matter　how　many　lessons　she　had。　　But　she　played

with　taste　and　a　graceful　rhythm；　which　proved　that　music　in　its

simplest　forms　might　become　a　language　by　which　she　could　express

her　thought　and　feeling。



〃Ida；〃　said　Mr。　Mayhew；　a　little　abruptly；　〃I　wish　to　see　a　friend

at　the　club。　　I'll　be　back　before　the　evening　is　over。〃



〃Please　don't　stay　long；〃　Ida　answered；　looking　wistfully　after

him。



Then　they　found　some　ballad…music　that　they　could　sing　together；

and　Van　Berg　expressed　great　pleasure　in　finding　how　well　their

voices　blended。



〃You　have　modestly　kept　quite　all　summer；　and　I　am　just　finding

out　that　you　play　and　sing；〃　he　said。



〃I　would　not　have　the　confidence　to　do　either　at　a　hotel。　　I　shall

never　be　able　to　do　any　more　than　furnish　a　little　simple　home

music　to　friends；　not　critics。〃



〃I'm　content　with　that　arrangement；　for　I　have　finally　dropped　my

character　of　critic。〃



〃But　true　friends　never　flatter；〃　she　said。　　〃If　you　won't　help　me

overcome　my　faults　I　shall　have　to　find　another　friend。〃



〃As　you　recommended　an　ancient　woman　as　nurse；　so　I　will　recommend

the　venerable　friend　you　have　already　found；　and　ask　you　to　let

him　do　all　the　fault…finding。〃



She　turned　to　him　and　said　earnestly：　　〃Mr。　Van　Berg；　are　you　not

a　sufficiently　sincere　friend　to　tell　me　my　faults？〃



〃Yes；　Miss　Ida；　if　you　ask　me　to。〃



〃Only　as　you　do　so　can　you　keep　my　respect。〃



〃You　are　very　much　in　earnest。　　I　never　saw　greater　fidelity　to

conscience　before；　and　I　should　be　very　sorry　if；　for　any　cause；

your　conscience　were　arrayed　against　me。〃



She　suddenly　buried　her　face　in　her　hands　and　trembled。　　Then

turning　from　him　to　her　piano　again　she　faltered：　　〃I　disregarded

conscience　once　and　I　suffered　deeply；〃　and　in　the　depths　of　her

soul　she　added；　〃and　I　fear　I　shall　again。〃



〃Miss　Ida；〃　he　said　impetuously；　〃I　cannot　tell　you　what

a　fascination　your　new；　beautiful　life　has　for　me　as　seen　against

the　dark　background　of　memories　which　neither　you　nor　I　can　ever

wholly　banish。　　But　I　am　causing　you　pain　now；〃　for　she　became　very

pale；　as　was　ever　the　case　when　there　was　the　faintest　allusion

to　the　awful　crime　which　she　had　contemplated。　　〃Forgive　me；〃　he

added　earnestly；　〃and　sing；　please；　that　little　meadow　brook　song；

of　which　I　caught　a　few　bars　last　evening。　　That；　I　think；　must

contain　an　antidote　against　all　morbid　thoughts。〃



〃You　are　mistaken；〃　she　said。　　〃It's　very　silly　and　sentimental；

you　won't　like　it。〃



〃Nevertheless　please　sing　it；　for　if　not　to　my　taste；　you　will

prevent　it　from　running　in　my　head　any　longer；　as　it　has　ever　since

I　heard　it。〃



〃You　will　never　ask　for　it　again；〃　she　said；　and　she　sang　the

following　words　to　a　low…gliding　melody　designed　to　suggest　the

murmur　of　a　small　stream：





'Twas　down　in　a　meadow；　close　by　a　brook；

A　violet　bloomed　in　a　shadowy　nook。

She　gazed　at　the　rill　with　a　wistful　eye…

〃He　cares　not　for　me；　he's　hastening　by；〃

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　She　sighed。

In　sunshine　and　shade　the　brook　sped　along；

Nor　ceased　for　a　moment　his　gurgling　song。

〃'Twould　sing　all　the　same　were　I　withered　and　dead〃…

And　the　blue…eyed　violet　bowed　her　head

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　And　died。



But　the　rill　and　the　song　went　on　the　same

Till　the　pitiless　frost　of　winter　came；

When　the　song　was　hushed　in　an　icy　chill；

And　the　gay　little　brook　at　last　stood　still

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　And　thought…

〃Oh；　could　I　now　see　the　violet　blue

that　looked　at　me　once　with　eyes　of　dew；

I'd　spring　to　her　feet　and　lingering　stay

Till　sure　I　was　bearing　her　love　away；

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　Well　sought。〃





The　song　seemed　to　disturb　the　artist　somewhat。　　〃The　stupid　brook！〃

he　exclaimed。　　〃It　was　so　stupid　as　to　be　almost　human。〃



〃I　knew　you　wouldn't　like　it；〃　she　said；　looking　up　at　him　in

surprise。



〃I　like　your　singing　and　the　music；　but　that　brook　provokes　me；

the　little　idiot！　　Why　didn't　it　stop　before？〃



〃I　take　the　brook's　part；〃　said　Ida。　　〃Because　the　violet　gazed　at

it　in　a　lackadaisical　way　was　no　reason　for　its　stopping　unless　it

wanted　to。　　Indeed；　if　I　were　the　violet　I　should　want　the　brook

to　go　on；　unless　it　couldn't　help　stopping。〃



〃It　did　stop　when　it　couldn't　help　itself；　and　then　it　was　too

late；〃　said　Van　Berg；　with　a　frown。



Ida　trilled　out　one　of　her　sudden　laughs；　as　she　said；　〃Don't　take

the　matter　so　to　heart；　Mr。　Van　Berg。　　When　spring　came　the　brook

went　on　as　merrily　as　ever；　and　was　well　contented　to　have　other

violets　look　at　it。〃



〃Miss　Ida；　you　are　a　witch；〃　said　the　artist；　and　with　an　odd；

involuntary　gesture　he　passed　his　hand　across　his　brow　as　if　to

brush　away　a　mist　or　film　from　his　mind。



〃Oh！〃　thought　Ida；　with　passionate　longing；　〃may　my　spells　hold；

or　else　I　may　feel　like　following　the　example　of　the　silly　little

violet。〃　But　she　pirouetted　up　to　her　father；　who　was　just　entering；

and　said：　〃It's　time　you　came；　father。　　Mr。　Van　berg　has　begun

calling　me　names。〃



〃I　shall　follow　his　example　by　calling　you　my　good　fairy。　　Mr。　Van

Berg；　I　have　been　in　paradise　all　the　week。〃



〃I　shall　not　join　this　mutual　admiration　society；　and　I　insist　that

you　two　gentlemen　talk　in　a　sensible　way。〃



But　Van　Berg　seemed　to　find　it　difficult　to　come　down　to

a　matter…of…fact　conversation　with　Mr。　Mayhew；　and　soon　after　took

his　leave。　　Before　going　he　tried　to　induce　Ida　to　come　to　the

studio　again；　but　she　declined；　saying：



〃Mother　has　entrusted　to　me　several　commissions；　and　I　must　attend

to　them　to…morrow　morning。　　As　it　is；　my　conscience　troubles　me

very　much　that　I　have　left　her　alone　all　the　week；　and　I　shall　try

to　make　all　the　amends　I　can　by　getting　what　she　wishes。〃



〃Oh！　your　terrible　conscience！〃　he　said。



〃Yes；　it　has　been　scolding　me　all　day　for　wasting　so　much　of　your

time。　　Now　don't　burden　yours　with　any　denials。　　Good…night。〃



He　turned　eagerly　to　protest　against　her　words；　but　she　was　retreating

rapidly；　she　gave　him　a　smile　over　her　shoulder；　however；　that　was

at　once　full　of　mirth　and　something　moresomething　that　he　could

not　explain　or　grasp　any　more　than　he　could　the　soft；　silvery　light

of　the　moon　that　filled　the　sky；　and　was　as　real　as　it　was　intangible。

He　walked　away　as　if　in　a　dream；　he　continued　his　aimless　wanderings

for　hours；　but　swift　as　were　his　strides　a　swifter　current　of

passion；　deep　and　strong；　was　sweeping　him　away　from　Jennie　Burton

and　the　power　to　make　good　his　open　pledge　to　win　her　if　he　could。

He　still　was　dreaming；　he　still　was　lost　in　the　luminous　mists

of　his　own　imagination。　　But　the　hour　of　waking　and　clear　vision