On the evening before he left Winesburg to take up his new life in the city； Ned Currie went to call on Alice。 They walked about through the streets for an hour and then got a rig from Wesley Moyer's livery and went for a drive in the country。 The moon came up and they found themselves unable to talk。 In his sadness the young man forgot the resolutions he had made regarding his conduct with the girl。
They got out of the buggy at a place where a long meadow ran down to the bank of Wine Creek and there in the dim light became lovers。 When at mid… night they returned to town they were both glad。 It did not seem to them that anything that could hap… pen in the future could blot out the wonder and beauty of the thing that had happened。 〃Now we will have to stick to each other； whatever happens we will have to do that；〃 Ned Currie said as he left the girl at her father's door。
The young newspaper man did not succeed in get… ting a place on a Cleveland paper and went west to Chicago。 For a time he was lonely and wrote to Alice almost every day。 Then he was caught up by the life of the city； he began to make friends and found new interests in life。 In Chicago he boarded at a house where there were several women。 One of them attracted his attention and he forgot Alice in Winesburg。 At the end of a year he had stopped writing letters； and only once in a long time； when he was lonely or when he went into one of the city parks and saw the moon shining on the grass as it had shone that night on the meadow by Wine Creek； did he think of her at all。
In Winesburg the girl who had been loved grew to be a woman。 When she was twenty…two years old her father； who owned a harness repair shop； died suddenly。 The harness maker was an old soldier； and after a few months his wife received a widow's pension。 She used the first money she got to buy a loom and became a weaver of carpets； and Alice got a place in Winney's store。 For a number of years nothing could have induced her to believe that Ned Currie would not in the end return to her。
She was glad to be employed because the daily round of toil in the store made the time of waiting seem less long and uninteresting。 She began to save money； thinking that when she had saved two or three hundred dollars she would follow her lover to the city and try if her presence would not win back his affections。
Alice did not blame Ned Currie for what had hap… pened in the moonlight in the field； but felt that she could never marry another man。 To her the thought of giving to another what she still felt could belong only to Ned seemed monstrous。 When other young men tried to attract her attention she would have nothing to do with them。 〃I am his wife and shall remain his wife whether he comes back or not；〃 she whispered to herself； and for all of her willingness to support herself could not have understood the growing modern idea of a woman's owning herself and giving and taking for her own ends in life。
Alice worked in the dry goods store from eight in the morning until six at night and on three evenings a week went back to the store to stay from seven until nine。 As time passed and she became more and more lonely she began to practice the devices common to lonely people。 When at night she went upstairs into her own room she knelt on the floor to pray and in her prayers whispered things she wanted to say to her lover。 She became attached to inanimate objects； and because it was her own； could not bare to have anyone touch the furniture of her room。 The trick of saving money； begun for a purpose； was carried on after the scheme of going to the city to find Ned Currie had been given up。 It became a fixed habit； and when she needed new clothes she did not get them。 Sometimes on rainy afternoons in the store she got out her bank book and； letting it lie open before her； spent hours dreaming impossible dreams of saving money enough so that the interest would support both herself and her future husband。
〃Ned always liked to travel about；〃 she thought。 〃I'll give him the chance。 Some day when we are married and I can save both his money and my own； we will be rich。 Then we can travel together all over the world。〃
In the dry goods store weeks ran into months and months into years as Alice waited and dreamed of her lover's return。 Her employer； a grey old man with false teeth and a thin grey mustache that drooped down over his mouth； was not given to conversation； and sometimes； on rainy days and in the winter when a storm raged in Main Street； long hours passed when no customers came in。 Alice ar… ranged and rearranged the stock。 She stood near the front window where she could look down the de… serted street and thought of the evenings when she had walked with Ned Currie and of what he had said。 〃We will have to stick to each other now。〃 The words echoed and re…echoed through the mind of the maturing woman。 Tears came into her eyes。 Sometimes when her employer had gone out and she was alone in the store she put her head on the counter and wept。 〃Oh； Ned； I am waiting；〃 she whispered over and over； and all the time the creep… ing fear that he would never come back grew stronger within her。
In the spring when the rains have passed and be… fore the long hot days of summer have come； the country about Winesburg is delightful。 The town lies in the midst of open fields； but beyond the fields are pleasant patches of woodlands。 In the wooded places are many little cloistered nooks； quiet places where lovers go to sit on Sunday afternoons。 Through the trees they look out across the fields and see farmers at work about the barns or people driving up and down on the roads。 In the town bells ring and occasionally a train passes； looking like a toy thing in the distance。
For several years after Ned Currie went away Alice did not go into the wood with the other young people on Sunday； but one day after he had been gone for two or three years and when her loneliness seemed unbearable； she put on her best dress and set out。 Finding a little sheltered place from which she could see the town and a long stretch of the fields； she sat down。 Fear of age and ineffectuality took possession of her。 She could not sit still； and arose。 As she stood looking out over the land some… thing； perhaps the thought of never ceasing life as it expresses itself in the flow of the seasons； fixed her mind on the passing years。 With a shiver of dread； she realized that for her the beauty and fresh… ness of youth had passed。 For the first time she felt that she had been cheated。 She did not blame Ned Currie and did not know what to blame。 Sadness swept over her。 Dropping to her knees； she tried to pray； but instead of prayers words of protest came to her lips。 〃It is not going to come to me。 I will never find happiness。 Why do I tell myself lies？〃 she cried； and an odd sense of relief came with this； her first bold attempt to face the fear that had be… come a part of her everyday life。
In the year when Alice Hindman became twenty… five two things happened to disturb the dull un… eventfulness of her days。 Her mother married Bush Milton； the carriage painter of Winesburg； and she herself became a member of the Winesburg Method… ist Church。 Alice joined the church because she had become frightened by the loneliness of her position in life。 Her mother's second marriage had empha… sized her isolation。 〃I am becoming old and queer。 If Ned comes he will not want me。 In the city where he is living men are perpetually young。 There is so much going on that they do not have time to grow old；〃 she told herself with a grim little smile； and went resolutely about the business of becoming ac… quainted with people。 Every Thursday evening when the store had closed she went to a prayer meeting in the basement of the church and on Sunday evening attended a meeting of an organization called The Epworth League。
When Will Hurley； a middle…aged man who clerked in a drug store and who also belonged to the church； offered to walk home with her she did not protest。 〃Of course I will not let him make a practice of being with me； but if he comes to see me once in a long time there can be no harm in that；〃 she told herself； still determined in her loyalty to Ned Currie。
Without realizing what was happening； Alice was trying feebly at first； but with growing determina… tion； to get a new hold upon life。 Beside the drug clerk she walked in silence； but sometimes in the darkness as they went stolidly along she put out her hand and touched softly the folds of his coat。 When he left her at the gate before her mother's house she did not go indoors； but stood for a moment by the door。 She wanted to call to the drug clerk； to ask him to sit with her in the darkness on the porch before the house； but was afraid he would not un… derstand。 〃It is not him that I want；〃 she told her… self； 〃I want to avoid being so much alone。 If I am not careful I will grow unaccustomed to being with people。〃
During the early fall of her twenty…seventh year a passionate restlessness took possession of Alice。 She could not bear to be in the company of the drug clerk； and when； in the evening； he came to walk with her she sent him away。 Her mind became in… tensely active and when； weary from the long hours of standing behind the counter in the store； she went home and crawled into bed； she could not sleep。 With staring eyes she looked into the dark… ness。 Her imagination； like a child awakened from long sleep； played about the room。 Deep within her there was something that would not be cheated by phantasies and that demanded some definite answer from life。
Alice took a pillow into her arms and held it tightly against her breasts。 Getting out of bed； she arranged a blanket so that in the darkness it looked like a form lying between the sheets and； kneeling beside the bed； she caressed it； whispering words over and over； like a refrain。 〃Why doesn't some… thing happen？ Why am I left here alone？〃 she mut… tered。 Although she sometimes thought of Ned Currie； she no longer depended on him。 Her desire had grown vague。 She did not want Ned Currie or any other man。 She wanted to be loved； to have something answer the call that